Movies ... Bleh ...

Recently movie making has been ... Hard ... I've had trouble with just about every aspect of movies! ...
Actors, editing, and ideas .... It seems hopeless... Right now I have maybe four unedited movies and its getting on my nerves, mainly because my WiNdOwS (hate it so much) computer keeps closing the movie editing program for no particular reason. And when it comes to my actors they randomly sing or just start talking randomly ...
Ideas ... I have none ... but I'm trying to write scripts and such ... also making a big movie would be fun...
So sometime this month or next... I'm going to buckle down on ideas and stuff! Any beastly ideas?

- Matt //TheBread// Pokorny

Potato?

I realized just a moment ago ... The word potato is a really strange word... If said really fast "potato" sounds like... Potato ... (ok I'm just making this up as I go) also something to think about... Why isn't anyone named "Potato" ... I think I might have my name changed ... To Paul mcveryshort... It will be ironic ...

[Posted via iPhone]

Pain

So recently my legs and back have been in minor pain ... But since a few days ago I had random pain spurts ... Now I know it might just be from growing pains but I don't know ... If it's not and it gets any worse I will probably have a cane ... Or just take pain meds ... Aside from physical pain ... My thoughts haven been so great ... But i'm trying to relax and focus on the good :D

[Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

Loyalty and a Few Laughs

The other day I was talking to an old friend I had fallen out of touch with. She's the kind of person that will have her head in the clouds one minute, only to come crashing down in a tailspin of emotion over the smallest thing. She was extremely emotionally unstable, and her life had no foundation at all. She was not a good person to grow close to and confide in. So I silently cut the cord to our friendship.

But it wasn't all bad. We had some really good times together. When she was in a good mood, she was a fun person to be around and a good friend to talk to.

It's funny how willing we are sometimes to overlook all the bad in a friendship for just a few moments of laughter with that person. I came out of that friendship pretty badly burned, but talking to her for even a few minutes the other day still put me in a good mood. I automatically looked past all the bad and chose to remember the few good times.

I won't be trying to breathe life into the friendship again; she's still crazy and still unstable. But while talking to her, I saw something in the way humans are built that I've never paid much attention to before: the amount of loyalty we feel and the amount of tolerance we allow ourselves to feel for a friend we've shared a few laughs with.

Givingthanks

Well I thought it would be appropriate for me to make a list of things that I thank God for...
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My Good Friends
My Family
God (duh)
My Health (I could be dead without God's grace)
My Skills (Art, movie making, acting, and many many more)
My Possessions (I could do without them but I'm thankful for them)
Music (I absolutely love music)
Coffee
Carpet (seriously the floor would be frickin hard)

I can't think of much more but I know I have been blessed to the millionth degree ... no higher than that

Manic Monday's

OK ... so on Monday I woke up at the Wilson's house and got ready for my day ...
Mainly playing Halo 3 online ... After about 4 hours of sitting around doing stuff I left with my friend Michael to get lunch at the outback.
Sadly they don't open till 4pm ... so we just left ...
I then was dropped off at the church and decided to walk all the way to Starbucks and back.
On my way back I saw a guy holding a cardboard sign I looked at him but all I saw was a man... I didn't even take the time to read the sign ... After about 20 seconds after walking away I wanted to walk back and read the sign and see if the guy needed help ... but I was carrying 2 cups of coffee and a doughnut (I know those reasons suck)...
After both of my classes I started to wait for drama to start ... sadly I didn't have a laptop or really anything to entertain my self so I got up and walked around after the first hour...
Then drama started ... and because of a recent "occurrence" I felt really sad ... so I put on my headphones and waited for it to be over ... then my brother came and drove me home...

My heart can’t take much more

OK so I randomly started writing this on a Skype chat room with Commie Thwarter Dan and Twiggyluvsyou... I just couldn't stop typing... Here is what came of that

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My heart can’t take much more
As I step out the door
and I try to implore
what I was really meant for
so now I see
what is killing me
and If I can’t take

all these things that I fake
apart from me I see
all I left behind me
and now I try to understand
how I become that kind of man
where I will never stand
and now they all try to demand

something I just don’t have in my hand
it’s kinda like a king
who is always bringing some thing
to break me down
before I have time to look around
and it’s just so apart of me
that I can’t leave

Its all something that makes me want to grieve
and I can’t handle all this pain
I realize what have I to do is look in this vein
that’s all crazy I must admit
you realize that I can’t quit
I have to press on through this pain
but I realize I have him to help me through
all this stuff that makes me ...sad?
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So yeah that's all that I wrote so far...

This Year, This Christmas

Christmas is coming fast. The only thing between us and it are a thin twenty-six days. Last year around this time, I couldn't see a point in Christmas. I didn't have any friends. I wondered from day to day "What if I died tomorrow? Would anyone miss me?" I had just broken off a friendship that left me badly burned. I couldn't see any point in friendship. I couldn't see the point in giving gifts to friends when all I saw was betrayal. I couldn't see the point in the obligatory gifts extended family exchanged. They never talk to me. What's worse, I couldn't see a point in celebrating Jesus Christ's birthday.

This year so much has changed. The same Christmas carols that used to discourage me now fill me with joy and humility. God has blessed me with some amazing friends, the best girlfriend I could ask for, and a new love for him. Life still isn't easy, but this year, this Christmas, I know I'm not alone.

So heat up the hot cocoa, dust off the sleds, and remember the reason we celebrate each December 25th. Merry Christmas, all. Here's to many more.

Snow ... settle down kids

So today it started to snow, and it hit me... I lost my childlike attitude about snow... Snow as become just weather for me ... not a fun magical white wonderful object from the heavens. Perhaps if it snowed alot ... maybe then I shall find my childlike wonder .... probably not...

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If you kids out there don't chill out about the snow I swear Ill get my Flame thrower!

Night Falls to Dawn

OK so I randomly started to type this up a long while ago so .... yeah its kinda lame........


Night falls to dawn
all upon the light
that makes a capable to fight
for us to see the sun
in the area we run
from the great disasters
I fight all of the masters
that know the moves
to blow us to some thing new
to a place where we see
just who we are meant to be
as we run
to pass this scene
to apply a means
to attack the day
to make us turn away
from what we knew
to go up and through all these things
that seem so real
only to realize
we wont get our daily meal
and now we descend
to a place we have been
before to the darkness
and to the night
before we scream from fright
and now we sleep
and we don't dare make a peep
so the day will stay away
from what I plan today


... OK I'm done...

Keeping Warm in the Winter...not as boring as the title.

So I was talking to my friend the other day. She smokes and I was just chilling with her. (literally it was sooo cold) And because I was curious, I asked her "Why do you smoke in the winter? I mean its really cold out here. And she just replied "Well like in the summer, I don't smoke that much cause its hot you know? But in the winter it like keeps me warm." And like I was just thinking recently about the spirtual meaning of a statement like that. Like we all need something to get us through the cold times, the hard times. For me its Jesus, my God, My Father. She is not too keen on church and all that, and I don't push Jesus on her. I just hope that maybe someday I can show her through my friendship that there is someone better than cigarettes that can make her feel warm in the wintertime. And that's Jesus.