Movies ... Bleh ...

Recently movie making has been ... Hard ... I've had trouble with just about every aspect of movies! ...
Actors, editing, and ideas .... It seems hopeless... Right now I have maybe four unedited movies and its getting on my nerves, mainly because my WiNdOwS (hate it so much) computer keeps closing the movie editing program for no particular reason. And when it comes to my actors they randomly sing or just start talking randomly ...
Ideas ... I have none ... but I'm trying to write scripts and such ... also making a big movie would be fun...
So sometime this month or next... I'm going to buckle down on ideas and stuff! Any beastly ideas?

- Matt //TheBread// Pokorny

People Need to Post

Well ... It seems to me that people other than me and Twiggyluvsyou need to post stories and ideas! Hopes and dreams, random sentences about tacos! And I don't care if you think its pointless DO IT because it isn't pointless... it's very enjoyable to read about my friends' life. So yeah ... I'm addicted to blogging ...or at least "My Dear Beast" in closing ... PEOPLE NEED TO POST!

Givingthanks

Well I thought it would be appropriate for me to make a list of things that I thank God for...
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My Good Friends
My Family
God (duh)
My Health (I could be dead without God's grace)
My Skills (Art, movie making, acting, and many many more)
My Possessions (I could do without them but I'm thankful for them)
Music (I absolutely love music)
Coffee
Carpet (seriously the floor would be frickin hard)

I can't think of much more but I know I have been blessed to the millionth degree ... no higher than that

My heart can’t take much more

OK so I randomly started writing this on a Skype chat room with Commie Thwarter Dan and Twiggyluvsyou... I just couldn't stop typing... Here is what came of that

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My heart can’t take much more
As I step out the door
and I try to implore
what I was really meant for
so now I see
what is killing me
and If I can’t take

all these things that I fake
apart from me I see
all I left behind me
and now I try to understand
how I become that kind of man
where I will never stand
and now they all try to demand

something I just don’t have in my hand
it’s kinda like a king
who is always bringing some thing
to break me down
before I have time to look around
and it’s just so apart of me
that I can’t leave

Its all something that makes me want to grieve
and I can’t handle all this pain
I realize what have I to do is look in this vein
that’s all crazy I must admit
you realize that I can’t quit
I have to press on through this pain
but I realize I have him to help me through
all this stuff that makes me ...sad?
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So yeah that's all that I wrote so far...

OK something is wrong ..... seriously ...

OK something is seriously wrong. And to be truthful ... I have no idea what it is... I just feel like a failure or just ... something is off ... anyway I guess I'm just venting my problems ...

Keep me in prayer plz!

Text Messaging

Text messaging has become .... kind of an addiction. Now what I mean by "addiction" is that I cant stop text messaging a person or keep sending messages to someone who doesn't text much or even respond. Now I know this seems weird but I feel like when I send any text messages to anyone they are more of a burden than a blessing. Now I know that before I even had a cellphone I didn't think like this, but now that I do a new world has opened up for me. But text messaging isn't all bad ... I've gotten to know more people through it. Any way in closing .... Bacon?

Talent?

OK so tonight is the talent night (whoopdedingledo) ... and it hit me... you could just get up on stage and tell a random stupid story and that would be considered talent ... too bad ... I'm playing a song instead...

Keeping Warm in the Winter...not as boring as the title.

So I was talking to my friend the other day. She smokes and I was just chilling with her. (literally it was sooo cold) And because I was curious, I asked her "Why do you smoke in the winter? I mean its really cold out here. And she just replied "Well like in the summer, I don't smoke that much cause its hot you know? But in the winter it like keeps me warm." And like I was just thinking recently about the spirtual meaning of a statement like that. Like we all need something to get us through the cold times, the hard times. For me its Jesus, my God, My Father. She is not too keen on church and all that, and I don't push Jesus on her. I just hope that maybe someday I can show her through my friendship that there is someone better than cigarettes that can make her feel warm in the wintertime. And that's Jesus.