Movies ... Bleh ...

Recently movie making has been ... Hard ... I've had trouble with just about every aspect of movies! ...
Actors, editing, and ideas .... It seems hopeless... Right now I have maybe four unedited movies and its getting on my nerves, mainly because my WiNdOwS (hate it so much) computer keeps closing the movie editing program for no particular reason. And when it comes to my actors they randomly sing or just start talking randomly ...
Ideas ... I have none ... but I'm trying to write scripts and such ... also making a big movie would be fun...
So sometime this month or next... I'm going to buckle down on ideas and stuff! Any beastly ideas?

- Matt //TheBread// Pokorny

My heart can’t take much more

OK so I randomly started writing this on a Skype chat room with Commie Thwarter Dan and Twiggyluvsyou... I just couldn't stop typing... Here is what came of that

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My heart can’t take much more
As I step out the door
and I try to implore
what I was really meant for
so now I see
what is killing me
and If I can’t take

all these things that I fake
apart from me I see
all I left behind me
and now I try to understand
how I become that kind of man
where I will never stand
and now they all try to demand

something I just don’t have in my hand
it’s kinda like a king
who is always bringing some thing
to break me down
before I have time to look around
and it’s just so apart of me
that I can’t leave

Its all something that makes me want to grieve
and I can’t handle all this pain
I realize what have I to do is look in this vein
that’s all crazy I must admit
you realize that I can’t quit
I have to press on through this pain
but I realize I have him to help me through
all this stuff that makes me ...sad?
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So yeah that's all that I wrote so far...

OK something is wrong ..... seriously ...

OK something is seriously wrong. And to be truthful ... I have no idea what it is... I just feel like a failure or just ... something is off ... anyway I guess I'm just venting my problems ...

Keep me in prayer plz!

Text Messaging

Text messaging has become .... kind of an addiction. Now what I mean by "addiction" is that I cant stop text messaging a person or keep sending messages to someone who doesn't text much or even respond. Now I know this seems weird but I feel like when I send any text messages to anyone they are more of a burden than a blessing. Now I know that before I even had a cellphone I didn't think like this, but now that I do a new world has opened up for me. But text messaging isn't all bad ... I've gotten to know more people through it. Any way in closing .... Bacon?

Thrilling Thursday #1

Today I walked around college with torn jeans. My left kneecap was cold all day. It's hard to tell these days if a tear is intentional or not. Mine wasn't. Nobody seemed to notice.